Dropping the Call

 

 

I was headed to an awards ceremony that would honor my husband’s work in the community when I received a text from my agent. ( Sidenote: For those who don’t know, I’m an actor. The agent in this case is my commercial representation) “I’m working with a direct client wondering if you’re available tomorrow for a possible booking”.  Exciting! I had an in-house audition that day after not having one for several months and now this, double exciting…except…I was already ” booked” tomorrow. I had agreed to babysit a for a friend.  This wasn’t a free thing. Babysitting is one of my side-hustles for extra income. As a mother , I KNOW how hard it can be to have someone cancel on you last minute when it comes to babysitting. I had already given my word to my friend and I didn’t want to be that mother that let another mother down sooooo … I replied that I was, unfortunately unavailable.

I still mourn that decision which is probably why it’s taken so long to write this post.  The way that direct bookings work is there’s a possibility of booking you on your look alone. Let’s say a client needs 2 women for the job , but there are 10 women who they like based on a head shot. They send out feelers to the agent and say, we like these 10 women, can you check their availability for tomorrow from 8am-noon?  Out of those 10  women, perhaps 8 of them are available.   Out of the 8, they choose 2, ba-da-bing, ba-da-boom. The 2 show up to set next day, film and eats snacks and somewhere between 30-90 days get paid enough to cover rent for one to several months.

Is it possible that I could have said that I was available and still not booked the job? Absolutely. Were the odds stacked in my favor ? Yep, based on the numbers alone. Auditions can have upwards of 40-50 people called in for one role versus the smaller numbers in direct bookings.

Hindsight is indeed 20/20. I should have simply sent a text to my friend to say, ” Hey, there’s a possibility that I will be doing a non-union commercial for a major retailer tomorrow. This would mean that I could only watch the kids from 8am-12pm.  Nothing is confirmed yet, but I simply want to be available for this opportunity.  I will let you know as soon as I find out more information, but can you please have someone on standby?” You know what the friend would have probably said? ” Oh my gosh, that’s awesome! I know this is an exciting opportunity for you and your  family. Let me know when you find out more, but I will have someone on back-up just in case. I hope you book  it!” End Scene.

 

I am constantly learning the lesson of choosing what’s right for me over helping someone else. I feel the most empowered in my decision making when I set boundaries. This lesson stings just a little bit more because of Granny. Maybe this was the big news she had for me or maybe it’s something even bigger.  Sorry Granny, next time I won’t “drop the call”. In the meantime, I’m just searching for a lil’ more grace and forgiveness for myself.

 

 

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Have you chosen doing what’s right for someone else over doing what’s right for you?  How did that decision affect you in the long run? I want to hear from you in the comments below!

 

 

 

 

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6 thoughts on “Dropping the Call

  1. Hope, Sing, Act says:

    Good stuff! Yes, Over and over and over and over. Why? Because it feels holy and loving. It’s something women are taught to do when we’re little girls by very well meaning people. Love our neighbor as ourself becomes “Always choose others over yourself.” It’s getting detoxed from my heart. Praying that you get another awesome opportunity like this really soon. Thanks for sharing!

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  2. Kiesha Seawood says:

    A bit sadden to finally say it out loud but I wonder, from time to time, whether or not if I made a great decision by taking in my niece and nephew. (Sigh) I love them very much and since being in my custody they have improved in every aspect. Grades are awesome, attitudes are better, and my favorite, they are learning how to use they’re words. Unfortunately, for me, I haven’t been back to school, I consistently sit and think how my life would have been if I’d kept me in the forefront; done with my Bachelor degree in Elementary Education perhaps??? I see reminders everywhere I go about becoming a teacher, news ads about needing new teachers and they will train on the job. Not to mention Hawaii yes Hawaii, searching for experienced and inexperienced teachers that are willing to relocate. And here I sit with a partially finished degree with high hopes and blurred dreams. Speaking honestly, I just want out. But what would be the cost???

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    • leavealilroomforgrace says:

      I don’t have the answer to that. I know that what you’re doing is an extremely selfless act. However from what I hear,” when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” Check out Paul Coelho’s The Alchemist

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